It’s time for me to move forward.

I spent most of last week feeling sorry for myself and being really angry.

In way, it was a step in the right direction to allow myself to be mad. For too long I wouldn’t allow myself to be angry. I’d push it down. I’d swallow it. I wouldn’t feel like I was good enough to be angry. Recently, during an RTT (Rapid Transformation Therapy) session, I realized that and I discovered what happened in my life to make me feel that way. So, being angry isn’t always a bad thing for me. In fact, it can be a good thing.

But now it’s time to move forward.

For a few days I refused to work out and to meditate.

I rebelled.

I sat in my self pity.

I was freaking ANGRY.

But now I’m ready to move forward. To continue to use what I know makes me feel better. And I know that I have all the power to make myself feel better.

It’s tough when life keeps throwing mud on me. It can be tough to keep hope alive. But what’s the alternative? Letting anger consume me? Giving up hope and feeling sorry for myself all the time? Not believing in a brighter future?

I don’t know what life’s going to throw at me in the future. And I still can’t figure out why certain things have happened to me in the past.

But I do know that I’d rather have hope than despair.

I choose hope over anger. I choose living the way I want to live over living a life that’s thrown at me.

So, I’m going to start to focus more on the blogs I write. I’m going to write more fiction too.

And I’m going to keep doing the things that make me healthier emotionally and physically. I’m also going to keep doing the things I love to do.

I’m going to keep hoping. I’m going to keep reaching. And I’m going to choose to live the life I want to live.

2 thoughts on “Choosing to Move Forward

  1. I know what you mean. I was having an angry spout for a few. I let out a nice scream and sang along to some loud metal. It never ceases to amaze me how the mind tricks can work for and against us. I hope you find your return to center easily. Thanks for helping me not feel alone. I love to write as well for this exact same reason so thanks!

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    1. Thank you for letting me know I’m not alone! It is amazing how quickly I can sink. And then want to stay down. But I know I can choose a better way. And I’m starting to feel that I deserve a better way. Thanks again!

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